I miss the way you look at me
With love in your hazel eyes.
I love the way you touch me
And hold me when I cry.
I miss the way you look at me
And the way you kiss my hair.
I love the way you love me
And your look that says you care.
I miss the way you touch my hand
And suddenly I feel
Like all the love in the world is next to me
And I think 'Someone this perfect can't be real.'
I miss the way you kiss me
Just right out of the blue.
I love the way you make me think,
'Is this to good to be true? '
I miss you so much it hurts sometimes.
My heart just aches for you.
For your touch, your trust, your unconditional love.
Your promise to help me through.
I miss you more than you can possibly imagine.
In your whole liftime of dreams.
I love you so much, my heart hurts sometimes.
So much I want to scream.
I miss the way you hug me
The way I fit perfectly in your arms.
I love the way you call me baby,
And enchant me with your charm.
I miss the way you fit around me,
Your soul, your arms, your heart.
I love the way I always loved you.
Right from the very start.
[Girl]
Name: :.angelbaby.:
Birthday: 00-00-00
Occupation: Singer/actress
Email: l1zaayu@yahoo.com.sg
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apple ipod
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Friday, December 17, 2004
Hmmmm
Time to update my blog!!
For that person that wrote in my blog..
I love my pink blog and I love that song. If you don't like it, it is ok. It is mine and it is ok for you to comment. And about the Veer-zara hindi movie. I have watch it and that is what I think like what you think about my blog. You comment isn't it? People have their own opinion about things about their happening and their life that is why they have a blog. But whatever it is. Thanks for your comment. At least some of it I did it myself and I really love it. If you hate it so much it is your own choice. I am not racist ....are you?
anyway forget about that person. Have not been really going out cause I am damn broke. Maybe because I don't really wan spend so much money on my last saving. Maybe just buy my cigarette. I think I should quit cause it is killing me financially. And that is really bad. Maybe Sunday will be going out and sleepover at my friend house. Can't wait for that day.
I really miss going shopping. So many things I wan buy and it is now going to be Christmas. And a lot of shops are having sales/discount. But what to do. Have to control myself on the money wise since I am no longer schooling and finding job. I am now a full time slacker.
Get to know this guy, he really is very nice and too good to be true. Kind of think he is a sweet talker. But whatever it is he is really very nice and sweet. Maybe there will be friendship between us. He is a good friend a good listener.
Fairuz bought a new line from M1 and he was given another sim card that is only for GPRS and it is great. You can download as much as you can with 5000KB. Normally 1000KB is $10 and with this sim card you only pay $10 for 5000KB. To me for now it is worth it. And I have downloaded a lot of games and ringtone for my 7610. Talking about handphone. I thought I really wanted to buy they new flip phone nokia 7270 but I really don't want to sell away my 7610. Really don't know what I should do. Maybe later when I start working on January then I will know. For now just daydream about it.
I have make another blog and it use to be my old blog...All the princess thing. It is kind of very pinky with alot of glitter word. But I use to love that but I like this better. With a song that my friend got it for me. It kind of sound cute and I dig into cute things.
Long time haven been in my friendster and I got this from the bulletin board. I find it is kind of sweet and romantic. What do you think!! hehe
Wen a guy reali falls in love and becomes
faithful to his beloved, his change in his character
will reali shock every1 around him.. His egoist heart
will uncompromisingly softens when he willingly
gives his heart to the lady he falls in love
with..
furthermore he'll be willing to sacrifice everythin and do anythin fer his loved one.. No matter how egoist he may be, tears will fall from his cheeks
wen his heart's broken.. It's not easy to see guys who would truly cry fer their loved ones...~
20 signs to recognise the strong love a guy holds fer his beloved..
1. he willingly do anythin n everythin fer his beloved.. with sincerity not coercion
2. he constantly wans to humour his beloved and tends to be more talkative
3. he tends to advise his beloved more as he truly loves her and wans her to be a
better person
4. he tries to restrict her freedom due to his overwhelmin jealousy
5. he constantly fears losin his beloved
6. he always monitors his beloved's movements as he feels insecure
7. he hates e idea of other guys bein close to his beloved
8. he becomes jealous and sensitive wen his beloved pays less attention to him
9. he becomes the most hardworking person n help his beloved to do anythin n
everythin
10. he becomes restless wen his beloved's away fer too long
11. he cares fer his beloved more than he does himself
12. he constantly asks if his beloved loves him as he feels his love is greater than
his beloved's
13. he would not be bothered wif other gals who dun hold any importance to him
14. he will try to spend a lot of time wif his beloved even tho he noes he'll end up
waitin fer his beloved
15. he praises his beloved in front of others
16. if his beloved leaves him, he cant trust any other gal n wishes fer his beloved
to come back to him
17. wen ther is a third party, he loses his mind and is willing to do anythin to
fight fer his beloved
18. he makes sure he ensures her safety at all times
19. he is lyk a small kid who fights fer constant attention from his beloved
20. he treats his beloved as his most trusted one and willing to sacrifice all of
his wealth and even his life fer her
wah isn't that romantic.
I guess until here I will write till next time...
muakzz
*The Writing From The Girl*
9:59 PM
Tuesday, December 07, 2004
....Love....
The four-letter word everyone longs to hear
To have that special someone whisper it in your ear
We wait our whole lives for the real thing
Many times mistaking what was only a fling
When you find that someone, you'll know it's real
Because in your heart, it will be love you feel
When you look in their eyes and feel your heart beating
You'll know it's the love that is never fleeting
Unselfishly you give your heart...
Hoping and praying it will not be torn apart
If ever this love proves not to be true
He'll leave with something belonging to you
A part of your heart forever he'll take
You will get over this, for your own sake
After all, you must still go on
For it is not your whole heart that is gone
Many believe in love at first sight
If you find that someone, hold on tight
Work on the relationship to make it grow
And in time you will know
If this is the love, you've waited your life for
You will never want or need... Anything more
*****************
Haizzzz.....
Once again a love poem yours truly RAHAYU RAHIM
At whatever age who doesn't wanna be in love or be so much in love with someone who loves you back as how you feel. I sure will always want to be in love. The feeling is wonderful. Let me see how will I feel when I was in love...
1) I keep thinking of that person every now and then
2) Whenever I feeling down he will be the person I will look for
3) Longing for his touch, kiss, feeling the warmness of his body, ....
4) Keep wanting to hear him say "I love you" cause it makes me melt
5) Talk to him almost every hours minutes second of the day if I am not doing
anything
6) Do things together
7) .....
This list can go forever....
A few of my relationship sucks big time...but my friends says maybe it was mean to be that way cause god wanted you to meet someone else. Yah how many must I meet to find the right one?
They say everything is written and god has created someone for you if it is not here then it is there.
Hmmmm.....that is definitely sad to hear.
But kind of to sad I have never really give up hope in relationship or love. I have no idea why.
My 1st boyfriend was during secondary school someone younger than me..
We were from different school and we have different interest. He wanted so much to be a soccer player. It was great...he will call me every night at 11pm and we will talk the whole night. Anyway he left me saying that he doesn't love me anymore. Wah I cry like mad. But it made me realize that relationship won't always last even if both of you have talk about being together forever....must have been really lame huh!!
Then there was this guy who was 10 years older than me. He was a gold-digger who I eventually found out. He is really using me for money. He made me pay for his bike, petrol, food and his son diapers. Oh yah!! When I knew him he didn't tell me that fact after I was with him he told me he have a son and in a process of divorce. What a FOOL I was. Eventually we broke up cause he when missing and came back to my life...gone missing and came back. Glad it was over.....
Then there was this guy(my 1st love).....
That time when I was with him we look like 10. I was even more fat at that time and he was so skinny like a stick. He really was something cause I really love him so much. Keep thinking of him none stop. Huh....but we broke of cause there was someone else. I cried nonstop for dayz and that sucks big time.
Few years back I went on a relationship with someone way younger than me. 3 years younger. He really made an impact to my life. Cause what he did to his life and my life I will never forget. He rape children between the age of 8-12 years behind my back and he was sentence to 20 years in prison. I was really farking sad that it made me lose 20 kilo. Hahaha
Then he regret what he did call me up said sorry, he loves me, ask me to wait for him n blah blah blah. What am I suppose to do...I really have no idea.
Hey...anyway I can't just go on and on about my exs......
Relationship with me really sucks. Will i ever find the one?
With all this stupid relationship I ever experiance my expectation change and I am sorry I turn out this way but my past huant me sometimes that is why I am this way.
This is who I am andhow I have turn out to be...if you can't accept it please go out of my life cause why do you even bother...
I guess until here I will write abou love cause love is a never ending thing....
*The Writing From The Girl*
2:49 AM
Thursday, December 02, 2004
Harlow I am back...
Huh that is nuts!! What have happen to me? Maybe I am this was becoz a certain incident have happen to my life.
I am remove from my course of study. I am no longer a student in Nanyang Polytechnic and I am no longer taking nursing. Is it a blessing or a bad luck?? I know I beginning to hate the course and I was starting to regret it. Not something I want for my life even if the pay is not bad. I won't wanna do what I don't like in my life. But my brother say I am a failure...am i?
Sikin always say it was hard for me to enter polytechnic but she didnt criticise me either in some way or another. She have always been there for me. Just now my mom ask what I am gonna do now...
I said I wanna work first then school back and ahe said why not go ite...
Hmmmmm.....
I just dont know if that is what i reali wan rite now. I am not saying ite is bad or anything... It just dont reali have the course i wan. Maybe in this 1 month i will think what I wan. I kind of like to be in Early Childhood course maybe this time go private. If my parents allow cause the pay is kind of expensive. I will try to ask my parents again.
My dad is not talking to me...maybe he thinks I am a failure like what my brother said. My father use to call me a quiter. Maybe I am. Kata org tua kalau keja tak pernah habis tak leh kawin...tak kawin sudahlah apa nak buat tak ada jodoh.
And I am bonded..huh guess my parents do have to pay alot. I just wanna said to them I am reali sorry. I reali use up their money alot. I will one day prove to you I am not a quiter if you only didnt force me to do something that I dont wanna do. My dad like to force me sometimes. Then I got from mendaki 75% subsidise and that too have to pay. I guess taking private is more expensive then going to school to take diploma. What have I done to my life? Did I make a huge mistake?
In some way it could be a sign that I am looking for but maybe I am stupid to have done that in my life....
Enough about that..I keep thinking about it, it is starting to kill me. I keep smoking none stop. But I cant stop thinking about it.
Now i think is to find job....
What type of job am I looking for?
Will reali like to lose a bit of weight... is that is ever gonna be sucessful when I kind of doing anything about it...HAHAHA
I hate it when people judge and saying things about me when they are reali not sure. Then I have another person who dont wanna tell the real situation about what he know about it.
I hate it when people are so into themself that they only think about their own feeling rather than thinking about mine. Here is a picture of me and Mahadi...HaPPy Amelina?
Y dont you just ask me? Say what you wanna say!! You dont like what is in my blogger just say it str8 to my face...
And dear Mahadi....you yourself dont tell people about me.
You by now should understand what are my feeling towards you...why mess it.
Getting sick of people judging me that way.
Mahadi said I always dedicate a blog for fairuz but not to him...so is that a big deal?
Just think what I am to you rite now and just be happy with it...
I dont reali feel what you say to me...and I know I keep asking you and saying to you.
CAUSE I JUST DONT FEEL IT
arghh....
Reali hate that....
What ever it is I am happy with the situation rite now....so hope you are happy too..
You dont like it fark off.
Reali like this background I am using it for my msn and my background for my comp...it is kind of reali cute hehe. Sometime I can just be angry at one time and be angry at one time.....tat is so lame of me...But what I reali care that is what I am.
Here is the background...
Haha
....LuRv is in the air....
*The Writing From The Girl*
2:00 AM