I miss the way you look at me
With love in your hazel eyes.
I love the way you touch me
And hold me when I cry.
I miss the way you look at me
And the way you kiss my hair.
I love the way you love me
And your look that says you care.
I miss the way you touch my hand
And suddenly I feel
Like all the love in the world is next to me
And I think 'Someone this perfect can't be real.'
I miss the way you kiss me
Just right out of the blue.
I love the way you make me think,
'Is this to good to be true? '
I miss you so much it hurts sometimes.
My heart just aches for you.
For your touch, your trust, your unconditional love.
Your promise to help me through.
I miss you more than you can possibly imagine.
In your whole liftime of dreams.
I love you so much, my heart hurts sometimes.
So much I want to scream.
I miss the way you hug me
The way I fit perfectly in your arms.
I love the way you call me baby,
And enchant me with your charm.
I miss the way you fit around me,
Your soul, your arms, your heart.
I love the way I always loved you.
Right from the very start.
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Sunday, November 28, 2004
Hari Raya have been great for this past few dayz I guess...didnt reali get much money as I am so old haha.... but my aunty and uncle as usual give me money which was great for the past few dayz then when I finish wah so boring...broke again....
Here are a few pictures I took with my handphone.
Here is my 2 sweet cuzzin...they wore th same colour baju kurung that time Auni was feeling very sick and she look reali stress up. She keep crying none stop and that is kind of stressing for my uncle and aunty...She will keep asking to be cry...maybe she is too manja...or maybe because she lost teh love she had before and she felt rejected when the love was given to mostly her younger sister Afza. Maybelah sometimes a child can feel that way...I have ever felt that was...and it was kind of reali sad..
I have ever fight with my parents saying something that I reali regreat after that. I have ever said that I think my parents loves my brother more than me. Wah...I guess after experiancing it for so long I cant be bothered with it anymore.
Hari Raya With Cuzzin
Here a pic of me with my mommy...do we look the same? Huh I dont know lah. My dad is darker malay. That is why my brother is darker than me. I guess I am lucky I got my mom's colour hahaha But I guess I have gone tanner no longer fair as my mother. I think in this picture I reali look very sucky. Was damn tired look at my mommy she look even worse than me.
But sometimes people mistook me as darker/tann chinese which gets irritating sometimes.
Me and My mOmmY
Wah look at all that jewelery. Hehe. Took that picture for fun.
Wah eMaS
When out jalan raya with Fairuz and a couple of my friends and here is one pic that my handphone still have. Took the photo at my friends place. Going out jalan raya had been fun too... lots of laughter and joy. cause we didnt reali go to many houses eventho when out very early. Like I said had some misunderstanding btw a couple of my friends about lateness...which sucks big time. But it was over wanna continue fighting and angry with each other go ahead.
FaIruZ aNd RaHayU
Here is a picture my friend took of him...haha Very funny he have bantal busuk which is so cute yet so disgusting. It was reali smelly what to do kata bantal busuk(smelly pillow). I wish my child wont reali depend on that coz it is disgusting.... My parent or rather my mom wont agree on us with pantal busuk or hisap buting. My mom reali find it gross
BanTaL BusUk
Look at my brother when he went to his secondary school Dinner and Dance. He look very cute ...wear celak hahaha My brother really got nothing to do. This is the day he when home really late and my parents blamed me for that...reali sucky but what to do.
IzaT Dinner and Dance
As usual my cuzzin...simply love them
Cute Child
I reali lurv this picture...here is gree charlie angel...hahaha
*The Writing From The Girl*
9:47 PM
Friday, November 26, 2004
The day before yesterday, I went jalan raya with my friends, it was reali a lame one. Waited for Asad and his girfriend for few hours and when he finally came when we asked, we waited so long for him and his reply was "why wait for him" ...wah tat reali got into peoples' nerve. Harlow Asad we waited for you and your girlfriend and even if is was suppose to be funny or whatever it wasn't ok. Please realise you should be thankful for what you got!! Alot of people say you have changed alot, If you change too much people might one day dont like you for you have change to become rude, when you are not in the first place. Whateverlah...meet Fatrah after so long and she look reali different and more pretty as usual. But I think her hair eventho it is nice it reali look kind of funny and I am not reali sure what it reali is. It looks kind of big I guess.When to Gamma house, liza house ..the usual house and so on... Wah going Hari Raya to their house and going to their house like normal is almost the same. Come to their house, Go to their room, sit ...laugh2 and then go home..haha the same. But I guess the different is we wear baju kurung. Tasha was the earliest to my house aniway my house was the 1st, and we reali had a good chat about relationship, so lame yet it was ok. Haha....it seem like we never get tired of talking about relationship as usual. A few of my friends next yr getting married...wah my grp of fren are reali getting smaller. And some too bz with their own life. I am gonna miss my friend eventually. They are the only one I have, The one i share everything with. I seems to sucky with my school friend since recently the Asmah thing...hope not to see her again ever. Cant be bothered, Ego ppl if they are happy on their own so let it be. Friends come and go sumtimes it is hard to find friend that will last and since Ihave found my grp of frens I will lurv u till the end. Haha...Remember me always.
Aniway when we went to fatrah house the last house at Circuit Road at Macpherson(if i spell is correctly-I always know myself as a bad speller). Her father was reali into Dangdut...wah so funny . It was reali late and I reali didnt wanna take cab go home and spend so much money on cab ride so I when to my friends house to sleepover. Aniway parents wasnt home. Watch tv and then sleep and I went home around 7, too the morning bus.. And my dad was awake, and ask em where I go ad I said jln raya . When afternoon I woke up my mother was so angry and she scream alot. Asking me where I go, so jln raya till morning...was so boring. So i stay home and do nothing but continue sleeping. Wanted to go out jln raya with Mahadi and his pertapis friend but eventually never go. Woke up late and he was too bz to even bother about me. I was the one who keep calling him and I am tired of it. Make me think he cant even bother and why should I bother. To me I am the one who keep calling him and I am tired of that. It seems as if I am the one and he is doing nothing but wait like a stupid fool. Aniway yesterday my brother when to his school DND.
He was out the whole nite and when he got home this morning my mom was really piss and I was to blame tell me I am the one who teach my brother all this things. wHY ME?
So what if I am the big sister I didnt teach him all that. It is all him. What so damn sick of it .
*The Writing From The Girl*
2:47 PM
Sunday, November 21, 2004
What a day today suppose to follow my parents and my mother's side to go out for Hari Raya visiting but I didnt, rather I when out. When eating my heart out at pizza hut at bedok..haha. What I really mean eat until I was damn full until my stomach bloated. I even bought my 2 cousin milk-bottle, Cookie Monster. It is blue in colour and it is very cute. I also bought The Sims2 pc game. I simply loves th sims. Had the first one, the one that comes with the add-on. I have it all and I love the game so much. Cant wait to play it and get bored hehe.
Me and my friend ate there because we wanted to watch this new movie frm Shah Rukh Khan and as usually my favourite Preity Zinta. I will watch any of her show cause it is my favourite. We catch the 6pm show and it ended till 9.30 then after that we just relax and talked. Hmmm.....
Here is what the story roughtly about:-
Veer Zara Movie Review
Crew
Producer Yash Raj Films
Director Yash Chopra
Music Madan Mohan
Lyrics Javed Akthar
Characters
Shah Rukh Khan: Veera Pratap Singh
Preity Zinta: Zara Hayat Khan
Rani Mukherjee: Saamiya Siddiqui
Manoj Bajpai: Raza
Amitabh Bachchan: Sumer Singh
Hema Malini: Saraswati
Divya Dutta: Shabbo
Kiron Kher: Mariam
Boman Irani: Jahangir Hayat Khan
Rating: 4/5
Movie Review
‘Veer Zara’ starts in the Kashmir valley but don’t start deducing conclusions. Veer Zara is not ‘Gadar’ nor is it ‘Heena’. So if you want to see Shah Rukh bashing entire Pakistan army you would be disappointed. There are no inflammatory dialogues, no opposition to marriage of Hindu guy with a Muslim girl. Rather the movie is a major step forward from media and Bollywood in particular towards Indo-Pak friendship. When have you seen a crooked Pakistan jailor praising an Indian prisoner in court?
Veer-Zara is an immortal love story beautifully narrated on the lines of Heer-Ranjha, Laila-Majnu and the likes. It tells the story of Squadron leader Veer Pratap Singh (Shah Rukh Khan) and Zara Hayat Khan (Preity Zinta) that spans 22 years. Veer Pratap Singh used to be a rescue pilot with the Indian Air Force. He is a type of person who loves life and is always out to help others. One fine day Shah Rukh Khan meets this stranded girl Zara, the daughter of an influential Pakistani politician (Boman Irani), a carefree, sprightly girl who has come to India to fulfill her bibi’s (Zohra Sehgal) dying wish. The bus she is traveling in meets with an accident and Veer Pratap saves her life. This one meet soon develops into friendship and slowly fall in love.
Veer also takes this opportunity to show Zara the place where he grew up (Punjab). His uncle (Amitabh Bachchan) and aunt (Hema Malini), who have raised Veer (he’s an orphan), also develop a strong liking for Zara.
As Veer accompanies Zara to Atari Railway station to drop her to Pakistan, he is urged by Sumer Singh to express his love to Zara. But it is then that Veer realizes that Zara is soon to be engaged to be married to Raza Shirazi (Manoj Bajpai) who is standing at the station. Nonetheless Veer does express his love to Zara and tells her that he would give up his life for her anytime.
While in Lahore, Zara finds it difficult to forget Veer. Her maid Shabbo (Divya Dutta) calls Veer in India and explains the situation.
Veer gives up his job and arrives in Lahore. He meets Zara in the presence of her family and prospective in-laws. Raza still agrees to marry her for his political future if Zara is ready to forget Veer. Mariam (Kiron Kher) pleads with Veer to return to India and he does agree after a dramatic scene, which probably is the best moment in the film.
But as he enters the bus, Pakistani cops arrest him under false charges of spying after taking instructions from Raza who wants to make Veer pay for running his life and making him get married to a woman who does not love him.
Twenty two years have passed and Veer is still languishing in the Pakistani prison. He has not uttered a single word to save the honor of Zara’s and her family. But maybe there is still chance as Saamiya Siddiqui (Rani Mukherjee), a Pakistani lawyer, comes to his rescue. She meets an ageing Veer Pratap Singh for the first time and decides to get to the bottom of this case. She is the only ray of hope for Veer and Zara and she stands tall against all odds including the cruel prosecution lawyer (Anupam Kher).
Veer-Zara is not the best effort from the versatile director Yash Chopra, but it’s different even though it treads the same age old formula of lovers separated by destiny. The movie though drags a tad too much in the first half. The part where Veer takes Zara to his village could be trimmed a little bit.
Even tough every actor/actress is brilliant in his/her role brilliantly Rani Mukherjee again manages to get herself noticed. She isn’t the lead actress nor has she got any songs, her role is highly de-glamorized but she does whatever she is supposed to brilliantly. Shah Rukh has been quoted as saying that after doing so many romantic movies he almost sleepwalks through them. And it shows. He underplays himself most of the time. His acting is brilliant and he occasionally brilliantly transforms himself from a 20 something air force pilot into a 50 year old prisoner (the constantly ventures into flashback and present). Preity looks good like all Yash Raj heroines and her acting is commendable. Weather she plays the carefree teenage girl or a girl madly in love, weather she is the responsible daughter or a girl torn between love and responsibilities she is believable in every shade her character goes through.
Amitabh Bachchan and Hema Malini are superb as the doting Punjabi-Madrasan couple. Amitabh as the young at heart village elder collects the maximum claps from the viewers. Manoj Bajpai gets minimal leverage, but he is fantastic in the scene when he confronts SRK while he is being interrogated.
For my own opinion, even if the stroy it a bit dragy but I think the story line is really good, I will give 3 1/2 star for it. Go and watch if you really wanna experiance a love story that is so touching...(i noe almost every hindi love story is touching). In this story love was so strong they willing to sacrifice everything for the other person. Wah so touching..
*The Writing From The Girl*
10:42 PM
Friday, November 19, 2004
Kind of feeling down..
I am sick and my temperature had went up to 40 degree. Uh and my brain hurts so much...like kena fry like tat. wat a day to be sick.....my mom is naging at me sayin tat becoz i keep going out that is y i am sick.....
she keep saying tat i have a home and i am still schoolin.. those ppl dun..i feel very sad coz my mom keep saying this and i noe she is refering to fairuz.......i dun wan to keep hearing it over and over again so tired of it
This year hari raya seems a bit slow.....usually almost every day (if weekdayz it will be during night time) go out visiting..hmmm. Maybe my family all will continue to go jln2 this weekend...dun noelah tu who's house. i reali wonder when i am gonna get my baju kurung yg i upah kat Toko Liza... they say next week...tat is maybe....wah so long....aniway it is partially my fault i send the kain 2 weeks bf hari raya....hmmmm nvrmind. at night will be going to cik mamat and pak busus house how i wish dun hav to know...so lazy to walk....
My adik sedara auni faqihah hav been sick for the past few dayz also....but children who are sick are worse than adult they will cry almost non-stop and everything seem tak kena. sometimes i feel so stress abt it..wen she wanted sumthin she will say in a very soft voice and when u dun even know wat itreali is....she will start screaming.
when i am sick....i guess me also manja ...hehe...onli those tat hav been with me will know how i reali am.
aniway have been watchin pontianak harum sundal mlm over and over again...reali lurv the show. i hav no idea y...the 1st time i watch it i was reali scared..hehehe
aniway i reali lurv the song frm misha omar...many ppl say the guy who sing with misha omar is ezad exists...but i have read it frm sumwhere it is izzad izzudin..a newcommer i guess. i dun reali know which one is the real one...coz wen i downloaded it frm mp3melayu is says ezad frm exists.
have u reali wonder abt the lyric of the song...it is kind of very scary...
In my opinion the overall lyric is about what Mariam want to say to Marsani. Since the song stuck in my head right now, I think I better interpret it verse by verse (or line by line) just to let the idea flow out.
Lyric :-
Seharum bunga yang menggoda
Sekadar dipandang usah dipuja
Wat it means??:-
Well Mariam just like the flower itself; beautiful & lovely. As a dancer, she wants people just watch her but not falling in love with her.
Lyric:-
Kau pasti tak percaya
Kasih ku bukan,
Untuk mu, sayang
Wat it means:-
The word "kau" (you) in here must be refering to Marsani. Well the verse simply said about what Mariam said towards Marsani that her love is not for him whether he wanted to believe it or not.
Lyric:-
Tiada ku sangka kau sungguh kejam
Kau rampas segalanya yang kau dendam
Wat it means:-
Well Mariam didn't suspect that Marsani was so cruel. He rob away her dignity. In other terms, he wanted to raped her.
Lyric:-
Namun takkan bahgia kehidupan mu
Bila bunyi bersatu
Kau milik ku
wat it means:-
In first line, Mariam swore that Marsani won't be happy in his life. While second and third line, she said when then sound unite, Marsani would be hers. This may be by killing Marsani while she dance or she haunts Marsani with a certain sound.
Lyric:-
Misha : Pulangkan cinta hati ku
Izzad : Oh hentikan lah menghantui ku
wat it means:-
Well it's plain and simple, Mariam wanted Marsani tu return back her love (or beloved). I think it is her husband; Danial who died in the sea. While Marsani wanted Mariam stop haunting him. I think by now she already a ghost, that why she can haunt him.(Please take note, Misha is refering to the female singer and Izzad is refering to the male singer.)
Lyric:-
Misha : Pulangkan oh pulangkan lah pada ku
Izzad: Ku pulangkan kesan hidup mu
wat it means:-
Well Mariam wants Marsani to return back (what ever it is) to her. So Marsani said he will return what ever remain of her (may be this involve her heritage/money/jewelry).
lyric:-
Misha: Yang dikau musnah tanpa relaku
Izzad : Bebaskanlah maafkan daku, oh kasih
wat it means:-
Mariam refer the thing that Marsani had destroyed without her will. (I'm still wondering what it is.) While Marsani wants Mariam to free and forgive him.
lyric:-
Tiada kemaafan di sini
wat it means:-
Mariam makes it clear that she won't forgive him.
lyric:-
Kau ragut degupan hati ku ini
wat it means:-
Well she said Marsani snatch away her live (he killed her one way or the other).
lyric:-
Akan ku jejakimu, kemana jua
Hingga akhir masa, sayang.....
wat it means:-
Well she swore that she will track him down no matter where he goes until the end of time.
Isn't it scary? She wants to track and haunt him until the end of time. The end of life is not applicable to her anymore. aniway that is what i think the song is about. haizz guess i have nothing better to do i guess....hehe
i guess until here onli i write seem reali tired sitting for too long...
...ciao....
njOy yr HarI rAYa...MUakZz
*The Writing From The Girl*
8:47 AM
Thursday, November 11, 2004
here is a picture of my adik sedara 2 gether...arent they cute??Simply so in lurv with them both. a few dayz back i bought them out with my frenz coz my mother wanted to do spring cleaning and make cake. wah it is reali stressing. I reali dun wan to be a young mother that is for sure. maybe not now...later when everything fine. i was reali stress when both cry at the same time. i noe sum parents will feel the same way that is for sure. nowadayz sure have many young parents i reali wonder how they reali survive with financial, support and many more. My aunty are still werkin even if she had give birth to her 2nd child...so how long will she be working? but I am not going to do it to find out. aniway aleast there is a baby in my house and i reali lurv babies they are so cute...
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Since there is a few more days to hari raya I wan to take this time to wish....
....Selamat Hari Raya. Maaf Zahir Batin...
to all muslimin dan muslimah.
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Been really busy for this past few days...it been days since i last wrote anything in my blog.
I reali hope that i could get my slippers back...it is reali special to me and please give me back if you are reading my blog. I don't care about anything I just want my slippers back cause someone bought it for me even if it a Bata slippers. Mahadi thx for everything...I didnt expect you to turn out this way u reali hurt me. but what to do what is done is done. I still dn understan what reali happen juz piss off and u juz reali walk out whateva as long as u r hapi juz be hapi. aniway i reali wan my slipper back i dun care about anything but just that. If u were hav been a gentleman u will hav col me but it is ok it has been dayz. I simply dun noe what to say. thx for all the stuff u gave to me, i reali appreciate it very much and kind to say i lurv it. aniway be hapi alwayz....take care
Anyway when shopping non-stop as usual buying more makeup things sure reali spending more money on that. But it is ok. Bought all stuff needed for hari raya like handbag and shoe. All my dad pay for it thank god...if not I will be damn broke. That day went to topshop and saw this pink panter underwear and I bought. It was reali cute and i bought it. I reali must have reali nothing to do. I reali dig into cute stuff. And I decided to polish my nails in brown colour i don't know my aunty will kill me if i colour my nails but what I care. They sure hav something to say. Cannot wear makeuplah coz it is all fake, cannot be into any relationship coz this is not the time when u start working then you can start.... and many more are aunty suppose to be that way? aniway not all my auty are that way, some are understanding but i guess they sometimes eventho understanding, they talk behind yr back I guess that is all part of life....
Anyway it is school holiday, looking for job. Fairuz has been helping me find job. Ask me to work at airport-barbox(dont reali know how it is spell). The job is reali kind of simple but a boring one. Just arrange drink at the bar box, the one all the drink are in an airplane.. I guess you all know what I reali mean rite? suppose to start yesterday but I didn't wan to cause it is gonna be Hari raya and I smply wanna stay home 1st. The work start at 8.30 till 4.30 with $35 perday pay. What do you think? Is it worth it? I have no idea if I reali wanna work here. Reali wanna work as a Sales assistant if possible. Anyway I have no idea if i reali wanna go for it.
Did henna on my hand....hehe. some more on my left and rite. diffn patten on each hand coz me a total of FOC hehe. reali like it if i dun then what seh dah buatkan takkan nak buang seh.
i onli get to do this once every 1 yr what it is not always so y not...
Since I hav nothing better to do during this few days, I design a blogskin of charmed. Done with microsof frontpage coz I onli know how to do it with that. But it is all charmed skin. I reali love charmed, I am a charmed addict.
Here is the 3 blog I have summited: what do u think of it?
The youngest one had rashes due to humid so hav to use cream all over her body..hehe
look like a mother that have just gave birth...
I reali find the youngest is too fair maybe havent yet being expose to sunlight. She reali look like chinese to u ask me. wat eve it is i lurv them...muakzzz.....
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SELAMAT HARI RAYA....ENJOY YR FESTIVE FEAST.
*The Writing From The Girl*
2:33 PM
Thursday, November 04, 2004
Hai..eventually my blog is back...
Sumthing was wrong with my photobucket...got things back together...simply love my pinky blog...cause rite now i am so lazy to change my blogskin and I am kind of lazy nowaday to even update it.....
My Bio exam is done...I am gonna fail it and that sucks big time......it seems supp paper is calling my name..."come Rahayu....u gonna fail it and i am comming" wakakakaka. My parent is gonna kill me if they know I fail it...especially now that I had attendence problem and I was bar from taking 1 of my module...what happen man !!!and my father took away my pon as punishment because of it..... maybe it is better for me...dun hav to pay bill dis mth, even with juz 1 module left i am gona fail that sucks big time and I hate it. Hav to blamed myself for not studying well and not comming to school. even if i didnot go to school atleast I stay at home it is not as if I told my parents I go to scholl but I didn't. I kind of hate bio so much cause since secondary school nvr seem to score well in science. Wat the heck....got to do what i got to do....which I hav no idea what...
I am so stress with school.....hav to repeat another 6 mths. and now i look like shit...
Got dis picture...dun u think we look the same....Hahaha. What do u think?
Now school holiday is comming I think i better find a job cause this semester I gonna hav 2 mths holiday rather than 1 cause i didn't have clinical module so attachment and i drop my year 3 module. Now i can start reading my book. Another love story, the title of the book was catchy and i decided to give it a try to read.
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.....ThE Book I am ReadinG NoW.....
let me tell you what is at the back of this book:-
...new love, old relationship and a question of fidelity...
Tash and Rich are newly engaged and wild about each other. they can't wait to celebrate their wedding with their closest friends, all of whom have known each other since university, where they enjoyed a hedonistic whirl parties, popularity, sex and sucess.
But is fun really as easy-come-easy-go in your 30's as it was in your 20's? How do relationship change once you leave college and hav to cope with real life?
AND WHAT IF THE LOVE OF THAT LIFE WERE TO REAPPEAR NOW?
As old, long-buried passions are reawaked, the grp realiza that a lot can change in 20 yrs. And a lot can happen in 7 days...
Seems like a good story..i shall read and find out!!
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Been going out almost everyday with my frens....almost everytime went to geylang...nvr seems bored going there. the environment is so great that i reali enjoy going there even if it is th same thing over and over again. Got myself a henna tatto coz i have nothing better to do. Even tho I think it is stupid...i like it eventually. Coz i got it.
...henna art...
...HinDi MoViE...
Bought a new hindi movie....it sounds nice when i read at the back but kind of it is a very boring show...will not recomend it to my fren...but i lurv preity zinta..she is so cute when she smiles...she always look nice in very movie she is in....well just watch it coz she was in it....
Also bought myself make up...frm estee lauder.....wah so expensive. But i love it so much it doesnt matter, in the beginning wanted to buy ideal matte(liquid foundation) but eventually got powder foundation. what the hell...hav bought already and i am happy
hmm...i guess that is all....sure feel like going shopping but what to do...broke now..maybe nxt time....
I LuRv HoLLy MarIe ComBs
*The Writing From The Girl*
3:20 AM
Tuesday, November 02, 2004
SUMTHING HAPPEN TO MY BLOG CLOSE FOR NOW WILL BE BACK SOONFOR NOW FEEL FREE TO TAG ME. ....AFTER MY EXAM..
*The Writing From The Girl*
2:42 AM