I miss the way you look at me
With love in your hazel eyes.
I love the way you touch me
And hold me when I cry.
I miss the way you look at me
And the way you kiss my hair.
I love the way you love me
And your look that says you care.
I miss the way you touch my hand
And suddenly I feel
Like all the love in the world is next to me
And I think 'Someone this perfect can't be real.'
I miss the way you kiss me
Just right out of the blue.
I love the way you make me think,
'Is this to good to be true? '
I miss you so much it hurts sometimes.
My heart just aches for you.
For your touch, your trust, your unconditional love.
Your promise to help me through.
I miss you more than you can possibly imagine.
In your whole liftime of dreams.
I love you so much, my heart hurts sometimes.
So much I want to scream.
I miss the way you hug me
The way I fit perfectly in your arms.
I love the way you call me baby,
And enchant me with your charm.
I miss the way you fit around me,
Your soul, your arms, your heart.
I love the way I always loved you.
Right from the very start.
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Monday, October 25, 2004
sometimes when i see romantic movie, see couple expressing their love openly..i wonder does one person reali know the meaning of love?
what is love?
different people have different description on what is LOVE.....
example:
1) when you think of noone else but him/her--->is it true??
2) love is a feelin you develop for juz for one person(soulmate/crush/...)and it can be noone but that person---> it is juz a feeling or it is more?
3) it is sumthing that you are willing to do juz for that peron----> are u really sure abt that? are u willing to die for that person?
4) love is when everythin arounds you means nothing but only him/her---> wah...u sure abt that..then wat abt education, career....in spore can u reali go far with juz that?
5) and many more...
as for me when a person ask me if i love him, and if i felt he is the one that i have this tingling feeling(which i can't explain) then i say i do love him....but when he ask me why i love him i juz can't say why.....all i will say is I juz do and i dun reali know that loving sumone have to have a meaning to it. is what i say wrong?
so........How will you know, if he will turn out to be the one...u can't reali see the future rite....
for example you are in love rite now and you will say all this thing abt him/her being the best person in yr life rite now...there could be no one else but him/her.
him/her being there for u...loving everything that peron does....u now what i mean all those mushy thing which i shall not go further... and if things didn't werk out. meet another person will u say he is the best things that have every happen to yr life again?? u get what i mean rite, could there be more than 2 peron that can be so great in yr life...I thought this type of peron will only happen once in yr life u either lose it or not.
they say internet love can't last...if they can't accept u as what u r then the realationship won't werk out...all this type of thing is called what? aniway whether it work out or not it is totally up to u.....u make how yr life suppose to go u can't juz say that it is always that way....we can never clap alone....u need 2 hands rite....so relationship can only werk out if both agree and if one doesnt then that is y it ended. i thought we plan our future....we were given brain for a reason...for us to think.
here is abt a poems abt love...read and tell me abt it:-
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All Of My Life
All of my life,
I have longed for someone like you,
So warm and tender,
with a love so true.
You light up my life
with each passing day,
Now that I have found you,
I will never let you get away.
The beauty of your smile, and
the warmth of your heart.
The great inner beauty you possess,
is what won me over,
and did from the very start.
As I sit here and think of you,
the memories of how we met
are ever so strong.
You came into my life
at a time I felt so alone.
All of my life I've longed
for someone who would love me,
for whom I am and nothing more.
You captured my mind and soul,
so you, my love, you are the key
to my heart's door.
Each day we are together,
is another day in paradise.
Knowing I've finally
found someone to love me,
surely does feel so nice.
No more lonely days and nights,
for they are gone forever, never to come again.
Since you came into my life,
I have so much love to
give to you from within.
The birds are flying high in the sky,
singing melodies of love found for you and I.
My body, soul and mind
are yours until the day I shall die.
And even after then...
the memory of love we have for each other
will speak to us for all eternity.
And another page of love
will be written in history.
As days go by let's you and I
keep this love we have between us alive.
As the hair on our heads grows gray,
we will look back at these precious memories of love
with a smile.
There will be no one who
can take this love away from us.
Because in God and each other,
we will forever put our trust.
All of my life I have dreamed
of a love so true and pure,
like yours.
Now that I have found you,
throughout all eternity this
love of ours will always endure.
I know we both are human
and are prone to make mistakes.
All of our mistakes, we will work through,
for true love is our fate.
I am just a normal human being,
from the great wonderof the world,
who loves you so much.
Each and everyday I longed
for your loving touch.
This day I pledge my love to you for always...
for better or for worse, until death do us part.
Our hearts will blend into one heart.
You and I will always be
the reality that dreams do come true.
All of my life I have dreamed of you,
Now my soul is at peace forever.
For you are here finally.
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the what about sex? is sex really impt in a relationship wen u r in lurv??
they say sex spice up yr life in relationship...they also say sex will help to make yr relationship stronger.
Or it is just our desire to enjoy pleasure?
then how long should u be together until both patner can indulge in sexual relationship....?? is it as long u r with the person u can hav sex..or u hav to get to know that peron first before having sex with him...??
is havin sex doing it with just yr lurv one..but if that phrase is true then y are there prostitute around?
to me sex in not impt..it is juz to spice up a relationship(that is what i think). I dun reali think my parents hav sex before marriage...maybe that is y i dun reali think sex is for making a relationship stronger.
if u do ever had sex..do u reali know what is the best? i dun think so...u can hav sex with as many ppl as u wan but do u noe the real meaning to great sex. ppl hav been tryin to improve sex by watchin prono and reading bks abt sex(karma sutra). so what is a great sex?
as for me i dun really know.....for now i shall wait n see
rite now i am in lurv and he knows that(i hope so) but all i can say to him is i hav fallen in lurv with many but for now he is the one i am in love with. i am sori i can't say u r the best cause i dun know what is the best. all i know that for now u r the one for me that is y i lurv u....
i lurv u as what u r and what u will turn out to be...cause it is simply u...that is my feeling, my thoughts and that is me. i can't promise anythin cause i know promise sumtimes can be broken. whatever it is will we will plan it together and makes things happen together. but if one day things can't happen btw us whether it is u or me, atleast we hav that moment that we hav this thing together and it means alot to me cause at 1 moment u r part of my life and at that moment u were everythin. maybe because i hav keep fallin in lurv and n feelin hurt fallin in lurv once too many times that is the reason y i am this way. and for you i dedicate this poem:-
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You
You are my heart and soul, every feeling I know.
You are my black and white, my darkness and my light.
You take away my fear, the only one I hold dear.
You cheer me up when times are blue, when no one else has a clue.
Our love for one another will keep us going, it will pull us through.
I want to care for you and always be there for you,
I want to be your shoulder to cry on, someone to rely upon,
I carry you when you can’t go on, I’ll be your back that’s strong.
Our love for one another will keep us going, it will pull us through.
We can take the world on, hand in hand,
We can forge a love that’s strong, a friendship that’ll never go wrong,
We can be happy and sad, but always glad,
We have each other, now and forever.
Our love for one another will keep us going, it will pull us through.
They may try to take us down to our death and drown,
They may try to tear us to shreds, a penalty we both will dread,
They can try to stir our problems and berate our happiness,
They can separate us in body, but never in soul, but...
Our love for one another will keep us going, it will pull us through.
Together we rule the world and the universe,
Together we are strong and will never let this bubble burst,
Together there's no evil to fight, let’s just step into the light,
Together forever isn’t a myth, because...
Our love for one another has kept us going, and it has pulled us through.
So wherever we go, wherever we're sent, remember our love will last,
it's too good to rent.
Till death do us part, the legend is true, as long as you love me
and I love you.
We will be together till the end of time your love and hope forever mine,
So remember when you read this, don’t be sad, I’m always here for you
no matter what, in mind, body, heart, spirit, soul.
Lovers eternal, friends it's true, you have me and I have you.
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that is my entry for today...as for now.....i wanna study
lurv RahayU RaHim...muakzz and kisses
*The Writing From The Girl*
6:57 AM
Saturday, October 23, 2004
Being bz for the past few days.....I don't know with what!!
Being going out for the past few day..haven't being going home for buka. At home this hav been stress with me...
I was having attendence problem at school as usual..but this time it gone too far... I was bar from taking my exam and it got into the nerve of my parents.... Yah maybe they are rite I am a quiter once I hav fail. Mahadi said that I should change and prove my parents wrong but guess what i reali dun wan to prove anything, i juz wan they to accept me as what i am maybe i won't be this way and be myself... my parents hav always wanted sumthin which i dun noe what they reali wan.....Uh my dear parents I am what i am why can't u accept me as what i am rather than wan me do be sumthin i am not... arent i am gd enuff for u? reverse psychology doesn't seem to work on me. it will onli make me feel like i am a loser rather than makin me buck up in life. but no matter what i lurv u with the whole of my heart without u what will i be. u guys where there no matter what and like i say no matter what i lurv u so much. for the past fewdays i hav been smokin too much..my life without my cigarette....sampoerna-mild mentol
fasting mth hav been ok i guess... hav been out the whole week didn't even once break my fast at hm durin the weekdays....maybe because i had enuff of my parent makin me feel as low as can be....going buka with my frens.....
Bought a new bag....always wanted it last time but a diffn colour. but it will do for now. shall show u later what bag i bought.
I dye my hair tu dark brown with a bit of reddish in colour...simply lurv it alot...hahaha. guess my golden brown hair is long history...tryin my best to keep long hair n i am hapi abt it now that is going beyong shoulder length onli the tip is dry...it is all because of tat stupid wella strainer fault now it is not silky smooth....haha me dreaming too much hahahah
the house
last few days wen to sengkang...and to that house that stood there, a house that cannot be pull down very eerie....but it was a nice experiance.... took photo of it tho like got nothing better to do like that...haha
recently found out that mahadi's cuz is in love...hmmmmm tat is quick gerl but as long as u r hapi i am reali hapi for u...
recently read my email i got a letter from my a fren that is been missing frm my life for a very long time more than a yr ago...i dun now what telah happen to me.
here is what he write to me....
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Hey there? Apa khabar? So how's da going, huh? Btw, I ingin mengucapkan Selamat menjalani Ibadah Puasa mu dgn hati yg tabah.. Keep in touch and i really wanna thank u for sharing wif me alll the forwarding e-mail all this while. Juz to keep in touch for now, and hope to hear from u real soon. Rindu lah kat u especially wif ur life dat u have been sharing wif me dulu!! Dah dapat mat ke blum skarang? U still hv me as ur listening hear so don hestitate to write me more rather than juz keep forwarding all those naughty and cheeky mail tau.. Chiow!
"One Man Job, Nobody know" -@Ease
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felt vey shocked to receive this email frm him....kind of miss him alot..
he was a great fren stook by me when i needed sum1....n he has been there all this while...aniway i juz wanna say to him thx.
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*The Writing From The Girl*
8:40 PM
Monday, October 18, 2004
Talk to Fairuz...and he told me about his problem...
as you can see Fairuz is kind of now living at his cousin Fhaizal's uncle place and kind of rite now not living with his father and stepmom(kind of dun like her at all). Due to some financial problem
He told me that his father have not give him and his sister duit harta arwah mak dia. here is where it begins...when the mother pass away the father sold away the house and Fairuz and his sister was taken care by his aunty and uncle(he doesn't stay with his sister). Fairuz was pissed at the beginning because his father sold the house and now adik beradik(sibling) have to stay at other people house, it is not as if they are anak yatim piatu they still have a father...then his father remarried. Heard alot of stories but 1 that really makes me feel shocked to hear was his father remarried to a janda with 2 children and they when honeymoon to india and her hantaran was 10k...can u immagine that...like in malay say kawin dgn anak dara pun tak gini mahal(marrying a virgin also not dis expensive u noe)...
There were story that his late mother's money was being borrow by his stepgrandmother and when her CPF come then she will pay back...Recently she got her CPF, his stepmom promise to give each sibling 1k...but only gave $500 and the Fairuz didn't get any...
His stepmom is like 1 gold-digger....wan to live like a rich person when they are not. Bought a plasma Tv....wahlau....dun wan to give money, spend on herself....she reali is kind of sick...
want to use sumthing that is not even hers....more like a bitch rite...she herself not werkin and dun even plan to save up the money for future use....use the money like sand. Then got the guts to say if later her husband cannot support her children education ask him to change job...wat the fuck.....she only thinkin of herself. making use of fairuz's father. Wah so stupid....
His father dun even have money for himself or buy things. Wanna buy cigarette ask Fairuz for money...I simply dun noe what to say...must be queen control.....
I don't reali know how harta is suppose to be divided but Mahadi say that the father hav no ritez to the money.....and the children only hav the rights.....What do u think??
I reali pity Fairuz and his 2 sister....it is like the father dun even bother....
The father pay for his new wife's children education but his own other ppl are paying what kind of father is that....hate it man....it sucks big time...
there is a lot of story about it many that I just can't bare and see them that way. It is as if they where treated like trash....
aniway I really hate that Fhaizal was talking to Fairuz and he refered me as 'gemuk'(fat). What an asshole he is....!! I reali hate him......he keep saying all this stuff abt me as if i have no feeling....i hope one day soon that he will hav it str8 to his face...let him realise that he is not that gdlooking...Fhaizal u need a reality check man...u suck big time....
*The Writing From The Girl*
2:24 AM
Sunday, October 17, 2004
Today my mom called up all my uncle and aunt to came to my house and ramai2 kita berbuka together.... At around 6.30 almost all my aunty and uncle came....
My mom cook today and is great...
(FOOD SERVE) (EAT YR HEARts OUT) (SiPUt SedUt-not really my Fav)
we had nasi goreng, salad, lemon chicken(the best for me), sweet and sour fish, bubur kacang, siputs sedut(one of my aunty cook this....i only like it when my 1st aunty cook it....it taste better when she cook it) and many more(yummy).....Some my aunt bring...It was a feast, i wasreally very full at the end of it....
Then after eating we Tarawih togerther at my house....one of my uncle become the imam...wah with the weather, it was damn hot ...
My cousin auni is very funny gerl she dun like to wear selendang....so wen she follow her parents to pray she like to say that he want to wear wat her fater is wearing with is songkok...see that picture there....
(AuNi LikE To WeAr SonKok) (AfZA CRy) (TaRaWIh)
after sembayang magrib and isyak together our tarawih was interupted when my cuz afza cried so we only started sembayang tarawih at around 8.30,like watching hindustan movie got intervel..hehehehe
At the end on it...I can say it was fun.....next week another of my aunty house i guess...
TaLKinG/LauGhIng fav iCe CReam
When everything is done...everybody was siting around talking and laughing.....and i got to eat my favourite ice cream....japanese ice cream. you should try...
Here is a pic of my monteL CoUsIn TauFiQ:
*The Writing From The Girl*
11:34 PM
By:- MonIca
yOu ShOulD'vE KnOwn BeTTeR
I didn't ask to go with you to Mexico.I really didn't need the shoppin spees inL.A, on Melrose,boy if you didn't know it well know you know.I didn't need the furs, or the jewelry because material things they don't mean much to me,and ever since you've been gone,I've been holdin us down on my own
(Hook:)I never evr cheated.I never ever lied.So you could stop asking me,asking me why?Why i never left you?And why I kept it real?And why i'm still with you?
(chorus:)U should've known better than to think I would leave.U should've better than to doubt me dear.It don't matter if you're,matter if you're down.Either way i'm gonna be around.U shoud've known that I would stay by your side.U should've known your girl was gonna ride or die.And it just don't matter if you're rich, or poor,out'or in,doing 5 to 10.U should've known better.
(Verse2:)What makes you think that I would forget about you.Think about it,who comes to see ya.Every saturday and monday,I was on that reciever.Me (me),Your girl (girl)Your life (life)Your world (world)Family and friends they just don't understand.They say I should leave you alone, but I say that they all should just leave us alone.Don't you get it?
(Hook:1x)
(chorus:1x)
(chorus repeated)No matter what they think about you,there's nothing I could do without you.
*The Writing From The Girl*
2:58 AM
Wednesday, October 13, 2004
Wanted to go to school to change my blogskin cause I found it to be very boring and dull....
Unfortunately my computer at home do not have microsoft frontpage and I don't really know how to change it without frontpage...hehe. Later become very messy and stupid.
Sekali ada test kat comp lab, this stupid elective thing which last semester I took. Cannot change, maybe another day....
Then when out with anna and mahadi...it was really fun to hang out with them was fun. Anna is very cute and funny too and she is nice to hang out with. Took picture with her....she like to take picture which is kind of funny cause she makes funny faces....
Someone said that my face is very pale...Do I really look pale meh....??
I must change meh I don't want to look like some sick person 24/7
We went to eat at Far east plaza....wah damn hungery siak....!! Then we wanted to go take neoprint but din't eventually... Anna wanted to meet my brother but he decided to go tution instead scared that if he cabut again, they will call home but they didn't eventually...
While waiting for my brother there was this cat so cute, so manja...I wish I can have 1 but my mom keep saying that, "diri sendiri tak terjaga nak jaga kucing" Haha.......wat the F*ck(sorry)...leh nevermind next time can ah.....beg my mother also no use...no point to it. Will never get 1!!
Here is the picture I took with anna:-
Wah exam is near and I haven't even start studying look at my book man....my table is always messy but never study one ah.... Ah I should start if i fail...I am gonna be kick out of school...wah....that will be a waste....
Currently am repeating my year2 module...both BIOLOGICAl and it sucks big time...
I always hated science and now in nursing I have to study it ...EEK!! And guess what in my repeat module I never even once go to the tutorial or practical. Just go for lecture and itu pun I selalu scan card....pathetic kan!! What to do.... school promise that I don't have to repeat 6 month and unfortunatelly this semester the yr2 take bio one semester one bio topic unlike me last time..... ah it sucks.....
I kind of wish I will not go to the same tutorial next sem...coz I don't feel like it. Hopefully I don't join them...so maybe I can start a new fresh yr 3.....PRAY HARD!!
My Study TAble:-
*The Writing From The Girl*
2:00 AM
Sunday, October 10, 2004
How we where born in some way or another:
May look gross...It is gross to me...But that is how we are born.
This baby is not really born normally...Usually it is the head(top) first but in this picture the bottom is first:
Enjoy the picture: I know I didn't really at first.....Felt like vomiting....hehe
In this picture:-(you can see)
the baby about to come out..
the process by which the baby being push out of the mother
and lastly the umbilical cord...Then there will be the placenta....
How was it now do u know and can u imagine how the baby come out??
*The Writing From The Girl*
5:00 PM
Introducing my most unfavourite person:
****FHAIZAL****
I don't know where to start to introduce you all who he is.
Hmmmmm.....
He is Fairuz's cousin. His name is Fhaizal.
All I can say is he is the most sucks peron I have ever meet in my whole life. I don't even know why he hated me so much..I never did anything to him. All I know about him at the beginning was all a lie.
But all I can say he think He is the most good looking guy(that is what I think,maybe it is true). I don't really understand why girls want him as their boyfriend.... Maybe it is because of his bike(KTM2) or he is a sweet-talker.
He like to kutuk me everytime since the day I went steady with Fairuz. Which sucks big time!!
Saying that I am ugly and fat and saying all the bad things about me. At times I wonder why he kutuk me so much he hardly even know me.
I knew him on mirc, at first found him to be nice..Maybe because he is a sweet talker. After a few months of knowing him. One day he ask this peron(Fairuz) to talk to me pretending that he was Fhaizal. Hey.. I am not so stupid, I know the diffences and I know it wasn't Fhaizal.....Eventually Fairuz admit.
The very same day(17th June 2003) Fairuz call me on my handphone when I ask who give him my number he said Fhaizal but when I confronted Fhaizal, he said Fairuz must have took it from his handphone. And that makes me hate Fairuz at the beginning.
After a few weeks of knowing Fairuz...found out that Fairuz was nice on the phone that is what makes me like with him. And one day Fairuz said he had feeling for me which was kind of sweet.
And that is when it all started......
Fairuz told me the truth about Fhaizal. It was hard to digest at the beginning. But I guess maybe it was the truth after all eventually Fairuz was my boyfriend.
Fairuz told me that Fhaizal was just playing with my feeling at the beginning. He like to make girls a fool and he was fool many girls. Fhaizal told Fairuz to make a fool out of me. Luckly Fairuz didn't and he also told me that this was not the first time Fhaizal ask him to do that.
How can Fhaizal be that way....I thought he was nice....
The TRUTH is he already had a girlfriend name Ain and they have been together for 7 years or so since his ITE life. And behind her back he is going out with girls, pretending to be single and lying to his GF. He must have fool many people. There was two girls I have known that he had fool and that was sad.
The first one was this ITE girl and he left her bulat-bulat. But eventhough I told the girl what time of person he was, she keep saying that she love him..... I guess he must have made this girl fall in love with him deeply with his bike n so on.
The next one was one of my friend name Asmah.... and he really fool her big time. I don't know what really happen. There was lots of story. Recently found out that he used Asmah for money. I always knew Asmah will love him but all I can say to Asmah is I never told him to go steady to make a fool out of you. Fairuz told me Fhaizal told Asmah I force him to go stady with her but He told Asmah he went stady with her because he had feeling for her which was alie.... But I guess you are just one of the girls he got the chance to fool. How can he loves you, Asmah when he never really broke up with Ain. Can you really love two person...you can but one of them must be just saying I LOVE YOU but never really mean it!!!
He always have been trying very hard to break me and Fairuz up which was never really successful...luckly(i thank god for that). Fairuz said Fhaizal never had the chance to fool me that is why he was very piss of with me. Hey I am the only girl that Fairuz know that is brave enough to talk back and kutuk him when he kutuk me. Fhaizal was really happy when I and Asmah was no longer friends, cause he was successful enough to make me lose something in my life....But it was ok. I am being strong. A lier like him how long can he go. All I can say to Asmah is I have warn you but you are one of the girls who believe in his sweet talk.
This two girls are not his first they are many more that I have heard story of and it is kind of sad that he is doing this.
Hey If any girls know him by far, be very careful.....remember he is still attach and he is still fooling girl..... better watch out. Maybe one day his day will come....but till then he is still lucky...
Hmmmm......there a few guys out there who is like him and it sucks....
But life has to go on.......
*The Writing From The Girl*
1:29 AM
Thursday, October 07, 2004
InTroDucinG my BroThEr:
Name: Rohaizat Bin Abdul Rahim
Age: 18 years old (4th Sept 1986)
ScHooling: Siglap Secondary School
Taking his O'Level this year
(Tall Dark and So call cute Guy)--> hahaha like real
Alot of people says that we don't look like brother and sister in the 1st place... which kind of sucks. Those who don't really know me so well will think that he is my boyfriend. Are they blind, if you look properly we kind of look the same in some way or another. Don't you think so? There was one incidence that may friend ask me why am i dating dark guy, they thought I only go for fair looking type of guy...Yah rite!! as if skin colour matter in relationship. HAHA but that incident was kind of funny....
I have always enjoy his company, he is always fun to be with. Make me laugh the whole time and I really want that in my guy. Who won't? Eventhough we always fight...doesn't matter with word or fist. We can't really be angry with each other for long. Usually when we do fight, it will only takes us a few hours to start talking to each other like normal. I guess it is ok since we are sibling. But there are some who will continue for days without talking to each other.
He is my partner in crime, last time we had tution together and both of us didn't go for it. We just hang out together until it is time to go home. Oh and please don't tell my mother about it cause she is going to kill us.
We are very open to each other, we tell our problem in school, relationship, money and so on. I will ask for his opinion on my boyfriend sometime. To me if you can't click with my brother then there must be something really wrong with you some where. Cause he is fun to be with.
In relationship, he seem to suck in it cause he is shy which is kind of funny with his type of personality. Wah i can remember He keep telling me about this diana girl last time, How he had a crush with her. But Izat it is just a crush, that type of feeling can just fade away you know. Sometimes when gerls are interested in him he will go dumb....think it can't be true that some gerl can really like him. I guess he won't rush to be in relationship, maybe 1 day the right will come along.
And you know recently, there was this cute gerl interested in him.
PIcTUrE OF aNa_iZaD tAkEN tOgEtHeR:
What do you think? Do they look cute together?
Funny isn't it!! My brother better make that move if not he will lose this cute gerl.
To tell you the truth I don't really know my brother's taste in gerl at all. But as long as he is happy I am happy for him.
He is a freak in games, usually I will ask him about things in games. Wah...I can continue writing about him and it will nvr be finish. Just wanna wish him all the best for his O'Level and to anna too. STUDY HARD BUT STUDY SMART....
As for me I better start studying if not I will be kick out of school...haha
*The Writing From The Girl*
6:00 AM
I got this from my friend, and I find it is one of many romantic story that I have read that I find is really touching.
Hope you enjoy reading it as much as i did.
Pls take some time to read...
My husband is a scientist by profession, I love him for his steady-being nature, and I love the warm feeling while lean against his broad shoulder. Three years in the courtship and now, two years into marriage, I would have to admit, I am getting tired of it, the reasons of me loving him before has now transform into the cause of all the restlessness. I am a sentimental woman and extremely sensitive and exquisite when it comes to relationship and feelings, I yearn for romantic moments, as though a little boy yearning for candy. And my husband, is just a contrast of me, his lack of sensitivity, and of all, inability of bringing romantic moments into our marriage has disheartened me about love.
One day, I finally decided to tell him my decision, that I want a divorce.
"Why?" he asked, shocking. "I am tired, there aren't reasons for everything in the world" I answered. He kept silent the whole night, seems to be in deep thoughts the whole night with cigarette lighted all the times. My feeling of disappointment is getting intense, a man who can't even express his detainment, what else can I hope from him? And finally he asked :" What can I do to change your mind?" Somebody said it right, it's hard to change a person's personality, and I guess, I have started losing faith in him. Look deep into his eyes and I slowly answered :
"Here is a question, if you can find the answer in my heart, I will change my mind, Let say, I love a flower at a mountain cliff, and we both sure that the making you to pick the flower will cause death, will you do it for me?" He said :" I will give you your answer tomorrow...." My heart just sink by listening to his respond.
The next morning, he was not around, and I saw a piece of paper with his scratching writing, underneath a glass of warm milk, It goes....Dear,"I would not pick that flower for you, but please allowed me to further explain the reasons " this first lines has already break my heart. I continue reading.
You can only type with computer and always messed up the programs in the PC, and cries in front of screen, I have to save my fingers so that I can help to restore the programs
You always left the house key behind, I have to save my legs to rush home for opening the door for you.
You love traveling but always lose your way in a new city, I have to save my eyes to leads you the way.
You always has the cramp whenever your "good friend" approach every month, I have to save my palm so that I can calm the cramp at your tummy.
You like to stays indoor, and I worries that you will be infected by infantile autism. I have to save my mouth to tells you jokes and storiesto cure your boredom.
You always stared at the computers, and that do no good to your eyes, have to save my eyes so that when we grow older, I can help to clip your nails,and help to removed those annoying white hairs. I will hold your hand, stroll down the beach, enjoying the sunshine and the beautiful sands... tells you the colour of flowers, just like the glow on your young face...
Thus, my dear, before I am sure there are someone who loves you more than I do... I would not pick the flower, and die.. " My tears drops on the letters, and blurred the ink of his hand writing... and I resume my reading..."And now, dear... you have finished reading my answer, if you are satisfied with these answers, please open the door of our house, I am standing there,with your favorite bread and fresh milk... I rush to pull open the door, and saw his anxious face, with his hand holding tight on the milk and bread....
Oh I am sure no one ever love me as much, and now I have decided to leave the flower alone...
That's life, or some said, love, when one is surrounded by love, the feeling of excitement fade away, and one tend to ignore the true love lies in between the peace and dullness. Love shows in any form, even a very little and corny form, it has never been a model, it could be the most incurious form.. . flowers, romantic moments is only the buckish formed on the surface of the relationship.
Under all this, the pillar of truelove stands... and that's our life... I hope everyone enjoy reading it... love, but not words win the arguments...
"Time is too slow for those who wait, too swift for those who fear, too long for those who grieve, too short for those who rejoice, but for those who love, time is eternity."
-Henry Van Dyke -
*The Writing From The Girl*
1:58 AM
Tuesday, October 05, 2004
Rahayu and fairuz
Here me and fairuz..
People say we are a cute couple. Do you think we are a cute couple?
I don't really think so... I think we are bad combination cause he is too goodlooking to be true...haha(is just my thought)
We were having some problems and it is kind of very sucky. We will continue to fight on and off continuously. And it got really,really serious. We eventually decided to go out seperate ways and be friends. Maybe it is for the best right now. He didn't wanna let me go and I really didn't know why he still choose me. Like they said if you let your love go and if it returns and that is what you call true love and as in malay says, "Jodoh tak akan ke mana."
All I can say about him is, he is a caring and loving boyfriend. He stood by me whenever he can. And kata orang that is what you will call "mat sanggup". But isn't what gerls want that in a guy. Haha I am promoting him. Hey if anyone is reading my blog interested just leave me a message ok. Hope maybe one day he will find a better gerl out there. Maybe I didn't really appreciate him as much as I should. Sometimes I felt that I will never find someone as loving as him.
He tell me his problem about his family and it makes me so sad that people treat him like trash. Just told him to relax and be strong. In life stress will always be there cause it is part of life. You just have to solve it one at time if not you will only die of it. Get what I mean there.... ?? I think I am becoming windy here.
So as to say he will always be in my mind no matter what!!
Here ia a bit of introduction of him:-
Kind if writing abot him anyway...
Name: Muhammad Fairuz Bin Nordin
Age: 20 years old (21th May 1984)
Werking in airport cathering
Staying: Aljunid(with father)
Sibling: 2 sister, Emy and Tasha..1 step-brother Rafiq
Father remarried after !st wife pass away
Likes: KTM(likes bike i guess), sing to Slam's song, jiwang berg...
About him: Loving, caring...goodlooking(hehe), sweet, nice smile, sanggup do anything for GF, blah blah blah....
What I hate about him: Shall not be mention( I dun't even know why i put this if I don't wanna tell)
Height: 1.75m Weight:50+kg (look like one lamppost) and he can still carry me wah so strong :-p
Bad colour combination for this posting
Am i still in love with him?
*The Writing From The Girl*
11:47 PM
Monday, October 04, 2004
Very FUnnY phOto..
here to anyone who smoke this brand ...no offence but it is for fun, lAughter and Joy..HEHE!!
*The Writing From The Girl*
9:45 PM
Sunday, October 03, 2004
Sometimes they just get married because of their parent's pressure about their responsibility. And not really because they want to spend thieir life together. Like growing old together. Finding the right person to spend the rest of your life with may seems easy but is it really that way?I am really emotional at times and i really believes in love so much like finding the right guy in my life. Loving each other and live happily ever after. My ex have ever tell me that life is not really like stories book that I have read but for what i know we are the one who choose our path in life(what we want).
Juz now went to my aunt's nya husband sidenya anak sedara marriage. It was a small one since their marriage is a "shortgun". hmmmm atleast they did it under the block like normal marriage and not just at rom. Let me think what i really think of this type of marriage!!
Maybe it is embarrassing I guess in some way or another. But I cannot really blamed them. He is willing to take the responsibility and that is kind of manly enuff. If I was in that situation I will really wish the guy will that his role and not run away. I will not abort the child for sure. I kind of live in a family where having a child is kind of hard and there is where i have learn to appreciate GOD's gift.
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where Oh WHERE IS MY KNIGHT?
Here is a funny Cartoon about instant BabY!! (very cute) I LIKE
*The Writing From The Girl*
5:37 AM
Saturday, October 02, 2004
wat do u think of them...they are my little angle....
Simply love and adore them so much. it is my uncle's daughters and my mother is taking care of them currently.
aFza HaDiRAh
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This is the youngest, she is 2 months. nothing much can say about her cause i just know her. hahaha.
she is also cute i find she look like a chinese. don't you think so?
all i can say is about her is she sleep alot and cry only...favourite drink milk....
haha...stupid rite after all she is juz a baby...DUH!!!!
AUnI FaQiHaH
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The oldest is Auni Faqihah she is 3 years old dis year. She is the one that i adore the most of course. I like to tell her my problem maybe because she will not understan and will only sit down n listen to me talk that is why i tell her...hehe Many people says she look like a boy. Do u think so?
Maybe becoz my mom says my aunty wanted a son. or maybe later in the future she will be good looking... manalah tahu...(u will never know)
Now she is very stuborn and naughty.... she is fierce... she will beat you up if u scole her or tell her what she can't do.
She is a devil in disguist...haha oklah wat else can i say about her?
I spoil her alot. Ad my mother say I hav teach her wrong stuff cause when i switch on techno song and any fast song she will dance to it. haha very cute sum more.
*The Writing From The Girl*
10:28 PM
Sexy Spike
my friend gave me this picture....funnykan
tulah nak spike kan rambut...
samapi kat situ pun nak spike kan. tak ada kerja.
*The Writing From The Girl*
9:32 PM